First Sunday in Ordinary Time
Today I will offer an act of faith and trust in some desire of Christ for me, one that I originally met with fear or indifference.
Lord, I do believe
in you, and I long to open my heart completely to receive your Word in total faith and trust. I seek
you ardently in this prayer so as to know you better. I want to know you so as to love you more
completely as my Savior and Lord.
Lord, grant me the grace
of active and total faith in you.
1. Mixed Opinions and Emotions:
There is a
striking contrast between the question, "Isn't this the son of Joseph?" and its preceding line: "And
all spoke highly of him and were amazed at the gracious words that came from his mouth." It seems
contradictory that at the same time as they are praising him, they are doubting him. But the
Apostles also experienced mixed feelings, even during their last encounter with Jesus Christ before
he ascended to heaven: "And when they saw him they worshiped him; but some doubted" (Matthew 28:17).
Don't we also sometimes find this same inner shakiness of our faith in Christ, even while we may be
professing it with our lips? Christ knows the weakness of the human heart, but he will not force
himself upon us nor work miracles without our sincere profession of faith in him.
Nevertheless, he is willing to help us if we can only humbly recognize our weakness and implore his
help. We have proof from the Gospel that he will not spurn the prayer "Lord I believe. Help my
unbelief!" (Mark 9:24)
2. He Only Seeks Our Happiness:
look at the panorama that Christ offers us from the history of Israel, he describes God's true
motive for encountering man, for seeking him out. Is it to bring him into submission and lay upon
him an unsupportable burden of holiness? God, rather, is the healer and has no other purpose than to
make these privileged souls happy. He yearns to lift a burden from their souls. He is there to heal
and to elevate their whole experience of life. Ultimately, all that Christ needs to make them happy
is that they have faith: an active and all-embracing faith, a faith that is not diluted by
rationalistic demands that condition their acceptance of God's plan. Do I experience Christ
only as trying to tighten the noose of responsibilities around my neck, or do I see that through
what appears to me as difficult, he seeks only to bring out something more beautiful in
3. Christ is the Alpha and the Omega:
Faith is not just for the future, not
just to recognize Christ as the Omega the end point of my journey where I find an explanation for
death. Nor is faith just for when my personal plans have gone awry and I need an explanation for my
moral and spiritual failures. Christ is not simply the caboose, trailing my life to clean up the
disorders that pull my train off the track. Our Lord is also the Alpha the beginning point. He
is the engine that drives the whole process and the place from which every new initiative for
advancement must begin. I must acknowledge that he is not just one means among others to live
a good life. He is the source and summit of true life itself, goodness incarnate, and no effort of
mine can have value or merit unless it is done in total dependence on him. Let my faith reveal this
truth to me, so that my heart may be open more and more to making Christ my reason for living, my
foundation for giving myself day after day.
Conversation with Christ:
want to open myself to what you propose to me in
prayer and to eliminate all pride and
human calculation at
work in my heart and mind. I trust in you, Lord, for you seek
only to make me happy, never to hurt me. When my own
reason becomes darkened
and my natural enthusiasm wanes
before the mystery of your design, help me confide in
and walk by your holy power and wisdom.
I will offer an act of faith and trust in some desire of Christ for me, one that I originally met
with fear or indifference.